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‘I had an amazing time but it was really hard on my body and my life,’ says former Playboy model in her first magazine interview since leaving the magazine
Holly Madison has opened up about her failed marriage to Hugh Hefner and the side of the Playboy Mansion she experienced.
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The former Playmate of the Year told Men’s Health magazine she left the mansion five years ago after suffering post-traumatic stress.
The end of her marriage to the 91-year-old is a far cry from the early days.
Madison, now 39, explained: “I think she did great. Her parents kept their cool, and they followed her lead. And I remember she felt like this model girl who was the perfect family girl.”
Madison spent eight years at the mansion and became the magazine’s first centrefold in 2005. She admitted she never really enjoyed all the glamour associated with her job.
“I can’t say it’s something I dreamed of. I definitely started in all of this because I was going to the Playboy Mansion to have a good time,” she said.
“I’m usually a very optimistic, hopeful person. But I got there one day and I was, like, ‘Wow, this is an unbelievable environment for me to be in. I don’t have a life outside of this, and I don’t know how I’m going to get through this.’”
Madison added: “Of course, I was awesome in front of the cameras. But I could never be myself.”
She added that she encountered a similar pressure as any other women in the public eye.
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“I never asked for those things. I never asked for special treatment,” she said. “For whatever reason, the public knows I’m Hef’s girlfriend, and I’m so used to being famous by now that I didn’t even know how to handle it.”
Madison and Hefner married in Las Vegas in 2005 and divorced in 2009.
Now living a “normal life”, Madison said she would never return to the spotlight but added: “I’ve learned my lesson.”
Madison was also open about her bad relationship with a drug addict. “It was like bad drug addiction. I wanted my life back,” she said.